Saturday, March 2, 2019

Gold Chains - Surgery

March 1 2019

Not much to say. This was the only photo I took and it was presurgery.  The smile is so forced, she is a ball of nerves before surgery.  We did do happy juice which we will do forever moving forward, 

Everytime she is at the hospital I am reminded of the gift she is to me.  She came to me from the other side of the world.  Her first mom carried her and gave birth to her and I (we) get to raise her to be the best Naomi she can be.  I am so LUCKY!  LOVE my girl to the moon and back a  bizzilion times.

Everytime she is in the hospital she shuts down and gets kinda mad at me.  It's OK.  see note above. 

Sunday, January 6, 2019

5 years

Forever Family Day #5

I love remembering this day.  5 years ago in Hefei China we got handed a crazy, inquisitive, tiny, weathered, scared, squeaky (didn't talk), sneaky and beautiful little girl. 

It wasn't easy but I would choose to do it all over again and again for her, for us.  

She was itty bitty.  When we got home from China I bought her 5t clothes at almost 10 years old.

Her siblings were so excited to finally have her. 

She would sneak out of bed and hunt down any phone or kindle she could get her hands on. 

These are some happy parents . . . so so happy!

Now she has about 25 stuffed panda's on her bed

Is gorgeous, kind, compassionate, loving, smart, cello playing, singing and the best teenage daughter I could have ever asked for. 

Except for when she is giving me heart attacks for speeding so fast in her chair or doing some other dare devil act. 

Saturday, September 8, 2018


June 16th 2018

I only cried a handful of times.  My first born graduated and this packs a lot of emotions.  I guess the biggest is LOVE and Pride.  


I am so behind on so many things. 

Here are some photos of my handsome boy.  Headed to prom!  He went with his buddies.  Not really his thing but he did it and had a good enough time.  I am so glad he went.

Wednesday, June 13, 2018

Last Day!!

This kid of mine finished his very last day of school.

Graduation is on Saturday. 

I will post more later because today I can't quite see through my teary eyes. 

Thursday, November 30, 2017


This little boy went to Heaven yesterday.  He was a big ol' LOVE.  All he really wanted out of life was a warm lap, a car ride and an occasional rumpus with his big sister. 

He will be missed.

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

I couldn't do that

Because this is my blog I get to say whatever I want.  If you don't like it Please feel free to not read it.

This is going to be a rambling post. 

People often tell me they couldn't foster a child.  I usually ask why, most of the time the answer is I couldn't give them back, it would hurt too bad.

Let me tell you it does hurt too BAD.  More than you could imagine.  There are so many emotions.  We aren't in foster care to add to our family. 

Our last placement was HARD really HARD.  I put my heart and soul into her for 4 short/long months.  I worked hard to give her a home and a family that could give her the space to do as much healing as possible.  I held her during rages and set boundaries and listened to stories no person should ever have to live through.  I took her to therapy and dr. apts.  I threw her a birthday party and held her when she was sick.  I was her mom for that short time.  Most day's I didn't think I could continue and  would tell Pete that I was DONE.  One step in front of another we made it until she could go to her forever home. 

The night before she left our home.  I held her and we both cried for a very long time.  It was a beautiful testimony to our story together to her healing and learning and growing.  Mine too.

All those who say they can't do it because it would hurt too bad.  You are right, it does hurt REALLY unbelievable bad.  I feel called to do this.  One foot in front of the other. 

We are three weeks into doing it all over again.  They are different kids with a different story.  My guess is it will hurt too BAD again.