Monday, September 22, 2014

First Day of School

September 3, 2014

Zach is now a freshman in HIGHSCHOOL.  How in the HELL did that happen????

Nathaniel is the top dog at school in 5th grade

My baby girl is in 1st grade

My newbie is rockin the 3rd grade

Heart Sisters

Hope to be back to posting . . .  fingers crossed.

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

8th Grade Graduation

I can't wait to see what you do in High School.

So very proud of my young man.

Thursday, May 15, 2014


A year ago today we said Yes!

So grateful for my friends that encouraged me to be brave and love this precious little girl.  

Thanking God for my sweet Evie!

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Looking back

May 6, 2013 I read a story about a little girl was was adopted, only 10 days later she was returned to her orphanage.  It broke my heart, though, to be honest most orphan stories break my heart.  But.  This story, BROKE my hubby's heart big time.  This little email was just a few sentences long but packed a huge punch.  I mean HUGE!

The photo that accompanied the short email that was sent to so many.

It was the beginning of a story that I could not have written alone.  God sized! 

Thursday, April 10, 2014


Not really much info.

We know her nerve damage is just outside the spinal cord low on her back.  We know there is a "clump" of nerves.  The big punch in the gut was that her nerves continue to be getting damaged.  We do not have a cause.  I feel like we are in limbo land big time.  I also felt a bit like her neurologist is done.  We were refereed to a neurosurgeon.  So many questions with very little answers.  I will continue to push for more.

We are scheduling a wheel chair evaluation.  This girl of mine falls ALL the TIME.  Probably 20-50 times a day.  She did just get a AFO but at age 9 learning to use it may be part of the problem.

Sorry this is a boring post but I just wanted to get it written down.  

Thursday, April 3, 2014


Evie has an MRI and and EMG tomorrow.   She is scheduled for 4 hours of full sedation.  Of you are the praying type please pray for our girl.  I could use a few too.


Sometimes it is a BAD thing.

I am sitting at my computer doing some reports for LWB.  Of course that means many cute orphan faces.  Too much for a momma's heart to handle.  It really breaks me into little pieces just about every time I sit down to get work done.  It doesn't help when little Evie walks over and asks if she can have this one (a cute baby 2.5 year old girl with a cleft palate and some developmental delays)  I told her to ask her dad. am I mean or what??

Last night as I was holding sweet Evie wiping away her tears.  Tears of pain and loss HUGE grieving sobs that lasted for what seemed like hours though only really about 45 minutes.  I said DONE I am DONE our family is complete DONE DONE DONE.  This hurts! at the same time I feel blessed to be the momma who walks her through this.  CRAZY!

When my girl feels so sad.  I look at her and feel so much love for her.  I wonder if she feels the love I have for her.  I wonder if she has a teeny tiny clue as to what love feels like?  Has she ever felt true unconditional love?  Does she know we love her?  or  Does she even know what love is?

Today as I finish up my reports.  Seeing so many faces that need to feel love.  How will we I ever be done???