Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Foster update

Our little foster girl - I call her Little Miss.

We have had this sweet, argumentative, music loving girl for 4 months now.  There was an article in the news paper about the abuse her and her siblings endured.  She is a kid with a significant amount of trauma in her life and significant amount of behaviors that go with the trauma.

Little Miss has been in therapy for several months now.  Today I had a care-giver apt with her therapist.  She pointed out to me how much healing has happened in our Little Miss' life.  Wow!!  Several months ago the therapist asked me why I do this/fostering . . . "I don't know!"  "I guess I feel called"  I really had no real reason except it is what I am supposed to be doing.  It feels clear to me and, hubby said Yes.  Today our lovely therapist reminded me of the "calling" and how I followed my "gut" (other sessions she has reminded me to follow my instincts because they are good)  She went on to say whatever Faith you have is leading you well because Little Miss has done a lot of healing with your love and care.

We are doing hard stuff, really hard stuff but when I hear how much we have impacted Little Miss' life my faith is renewed.

We may be saying goodbye to Little Miss soon.  For a long time I was very ready to say goodbye because I was so "done" and frustrated. Who am I kidding  . . . this is gonna be hard and sad.  I will miss her.  Thankfully goodbye won't be forever but a new chapter and relationship will begin.

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

First Day of School




My first born is a SENIOR!!! How in the hell did this happen?!  
I pray for success, growth, happiness and peace.  I love this kid.  

Sixth Grader

Someone may have "dropped a rose"

8th grader


4th grader, my baby




TEN!

She went and turned 10 years old.  My baby is TEN!!



Party Shenanigans










Cousins


Sunday, July 23, 2017

HONK!!!


It went fast!! 4 weeks in the making.

My boy went into tryouts saying he just wanted to be in the ensemble, he didn't really want a speaking part.  

HAHA!!  He got the part of UGLY!!! Not only a speaking part but several solos. 


I hate to say the lead role but really it was.  My boy learned so much over the last 4 weeks.  He made his momma so so PROUD!!

He made many new friends.


Ugly


SWAN!  The story was so sad and sweet.   I may have cried at EVERY.SINGLE.SHOW!  Like lots of tears!  PROUD! PROUD! PROUD!

Friday, July 7, 2017

A little update on our journey:

We got licensed on May 19th at about 4 pm.  We got our first call about 5pm.  Yep it took all of one hour.  I said no as we had too much going on.  My hubby is a Rock Star and his band had a gig that night.  Something we had been looking forward to for a while (Ok, maybe star is a little exaggerated, he is my star (sorry to make you vomit))

Of course said child is heavily on my mind.  I decided to call in the morning and if she hadn't been placed she could finish up the weekend with us.  As you can see a month and a half later she is still here.




It ain't easy!  Kids from hard places are hard to parent.  Really what it is is we have to be 100% on ALL THE TIME.  The moment I feel like throwing in the towel I get a sweet note under my pillow or a big ol'hug or a "you are a good mom and dad"  (as in she has never had one of those before)

It is really hard on my kids. I am not seeing the sweet, loving side of my children as of late and that is hard to watch.

We keep on keeping on.  We can do hard things especially with sweet moments sprinkled in.

Monday, May 15, 2017

Foster Care

Well . . . we went and submitted our application to become a foster family back in March.  Today our homestudy is done along with our CPR and training requirements.  We just might be licensed by the end of the week.

About 5 years ago I had a little prayer/nap time one afternoon.  I often pray for God to use me. PLEASE. and if he wants to use me  PLEASE!  make it very obvious.  Anyway I was startled out of my prayer/nap time by the door bell.  It was the scheduled furnace maintenance guy.  I showed him to the furnace and apologized for the amount of toys that were on the rec-room floor.  After he did whatever he was doing to my furnace he said "don't worry about the toys, I have 6 kids".  We only had 3 at the time.  I responded with something like "Wow that is a crazy amount of kids but I LOVE it!"  He  went on to tell me that a couple were foster kids and that the need is great.  We chatted for a good 15 minutes.

So you get it.  The seed was planted many years ago.

I still want more from China but for right now I know this is exactly where we are supposed to be.

I am scared
I am excited
I am terrified
I just want to get this started.

If you see me out and about with a little person please respect their feelings.  We were told during training by a former foster child how much they hated the questions. You are welcome to ask me in private.   Thanks!