We are on one of the very best roads to be on
I have been praying for years for another Chinese Princess.
My prayer was either "God can you please hurry and change my hubby's heart" or when I am feeling a bit more patient "God I know I will know it is time again when hubby is ready" Truth is I knew the best was the later.
So time ticked on and on and on and on . . . you get the picture. Years.
After my little people are tucked into their beds at night I usually do my "work" (I volunteer for LWB they care for orphans in China)
Most nights it goes something like "look hubby this sweet little orphan had life saving surgery" or "oh no this one is sick again" or "oh look how cute this sweet baby is" or "oh how I wish they all had mommies and daddies to love them" you get the picture.
A few weeks ago there was what I thought was just another sad story. It was about a girl who was placed with a US family then disrupted at the US consulate in China. Apparently this story got to my hubby. I saw tears in his eyes.
Life goes on for us. Though neither of us can get this little girl out of our minds. A few days pass and I inquire about her age and SN. She is way too old for me. But for some dang reason she wouldn't leave Pete's heart and to be honest I cound't stop thinking about her.
I share her info with a friend who happens to have her own adoption agency. We look at her info. Again I don't want a nine year old but there is a peace about this girl.
fast forward a few days
EVERYTHING and I mean EVERYTHING falls into place. Her file was unavailable then available then ready for us to lock all in perfect timing. I don't want to bore you with all the details but trust me when I say PERFECT timing.
There was a few hours after we locked her file that I freaked out. I was feeling sad that she was not 3 or 4 years old, worried that we wouldn't attach, worried I couldn't parent a 9 year old, worried about birth order, WORRIED, WORRIED, WORRIED!
A few special friends said the very words I needed to hear. My hubby remained calm and 100% IN the man that was DONE with the ones we have was so comfortable and at peace with his decision. He made sure I knew that we both had to be in it. He wanted this more than I for a few hours. HOLY COW talk about a role reversal.
I can't wait to introduce you to our new BEAUTIFUL Daughter.
HURRY UP PA!!! Hurry Up!
so again we are on
ADOPTION ROAD . . . a journey I wish everyone could experience.
It feels pretty cool to follow God's timing and story. This is clearly not mine . . . But I am lovin it.